good news

I lost 10 lbs in less than a month!

This is big news for me. I am not a skinny girl. Instead, I am a curvy woman. It's partially my pal, gene's fault. I was born to birth big headed babies, so my hips would put Shakira's to trial.

I haven't been doing anything unnatural either. I hate the idea of diets, after being in dance for a good part of my life and being obsessed with the ballerina lifestyle, I've seen too many horrible outcomes of unhealthy dieting.

Diet. I freaking hate that word. I feel like it has become a nickname for "hating my body, so instead I'm going to destroy it with unhealthy habit-forming techniques".

I love my body. I've got these crazy awesome hips and I'm strangely flexible. I've got amazing dark hair and I like how when I smile my eyes turn into these almost asian half-moon smiles from my Native American Granddad.

But I've decided that if I like my body so much, and I want to keep it for longer, I'd better focus on the long term.

I started this "eating plan" (see what I did there?) with increased protein, vitamins twice a day to compensate for any nutrients that I might be missing out on, cutting out all starches, gluten, and natural sugars. Basically what I'm doing is resetting my hypothalamus (which is the part in your body that decides where to take it's energy) without a drastic cutting-down of calories. I'm teaching my body to take energy from the saved up storage in the body's fat, as opposed to the food I'm taking in.

It can be a little exhausting sometimes because you're body doesn't quite get the memo of where the energy is the first week or so, but afterwards, you gain your energy back and you notice that you're not as starving all the time.

It's completely healthy and I'm not starving my body of anything that it didn't get before. Well, except for maybe guilt and self-conciousness... That's right. I'm feeling pretty hott.

ambitions

I don't know why but the word ambition always makes me think of the word 'amphibians', which means frogs, and this post is nothing about frogs.

I used to be a big list writer. I make lists almost every day. Things I needed to remember, things to do, things I'd like to do, things that I like, things that I love, just random stuff.

Today I've been making a list of things in my head that I'd like to improve on, so I just wanted to write them down before I forgot:

• improve my manual skills with photography
• practice my french more (read books and watch films in french)
• go to the library more often
• run three miles in 15 mins
• learn more songs on my ukulele
• learn more chords on my guitar
• go through my Facebook and cleanse my friends list (not to be a jerk, but sometimes you realize that there are people that you really don't need to keep in contact with)
• make a new 5 year plan
• figure a plan to graduate within the next on coming year
• create a formal resume and portfolio

These are all short-term ambitions obviously, just stuff I aspire to get done soon. I think they're all reasonable, if not easy.

fact

The perfect cure for a headache, stomach ache, body pains, and/or extreme crankiness is a warm shower in the dark.

Today I was a beast. It was one of those days where I was having an ok day, got kind of tired, so I decided to take a 50 min nap. Well instead of waking up refreshed, I woke up feeling like a steroid-overdosed viking. Needless to say, I was a beast. Which was proven by the instance where I physically and violently shoved my roommate's boyfriend out of the apartment and slammed the door in his face for jumping out at me and scaring me half to death... it was a reflex?

I haven't gotten any homework done and I feel just as nasty. So I throw my flag in the air. I give up. I'm going to bed, I'll try again in the morning.

But really, the shower helped.

photo thoughts

I don't think it would be possible to get in this shower without having to sing, "I'm gonna wash that man right outta my hair"

I would love to do this

I don't know whether I should laugh, or be afraid that my kids would do the same thing

I need a poster of this

To the left is a full body scan of a 250lb woman and to the right is a scan of a woman 120lbs. It's just some inspiration I needed. I lost 4lbs this week. 

I saw a collection of this artist's work. He draws different celebrities on match boxes and uses the sticks as hands

"a woman should have" -maya angelou

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..

enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..

something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..

a youth she’s content to leave behind….

a past juicy enough that she’s looking forward to
retelling it in her old age….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …..

a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .

one friend who always makes her laugh… and one who lets her cry…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ….

a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

a feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

when to try harder… and WHEN TO WALK AWAY…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

that she can’t change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

that her childhood may not have been perfect…but its over…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

what she would and wouldn’t do for love or more…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

how to live alone… even if she doesn’t like it…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..

whom she can trust,
whom she can’t,
and why she shouldn’t take it personally…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

where to go…
be it to her best friend’s kitchen table…
or a charming inn in the woods…
when her soul needs soothing…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

what she can and can’t accomplish in a day…
a month…and a year…

thought

Today I bought a pair of men's jeans.

I bought them for the purpose of wearing them for my ceramics class. But they are so comfortable, I am almost tempted to buy a regular pair just to wear...

fact

I'm procrastinating with posts. Can you tell school has started again?

birthday

Sunday is my birthday.

I'm turning 22 years-old.

My last birthday was kind of a bust. I didn't hear from a lot of important people in my life, which was really sad. But I did get to spend a fund evening with my Disney World girls. So that was a plus.

But this year I'm feeling like I shouldn't get myself worked up for anything. I'm expecting a really quiet birthday. I have one package to open from my mother and two birthday records that I bought for myself, so I'm going to wait to listen to them until Sunday. And saturday night, I'll go out and buy something nice to fix myself for a birthday breakfast and I'll take a sunday nap!

I always give the best birthday presents... to myself. So I'm trying to decide what to give myself. Here are my options: *these are typically the things I wouldn't ask someone else to give me

Bond #9: Fashion Avenue perfume

This was brought to my attention by M. and I'm totally in love with it. Whether it's sooner or later, I'm going to need it because I'm running out of my test sample!

The book: Treasures of the Beatle's

Its a fun history book with replicas of concert tickets, tons of posters and just fun stuff

And then there's this... I just won my first bid on eBay!! I was so excited! I got this beautiful typewriter that comes with it's original case and it's in perfect condition. The bid was cheap and I'm pretty excited. But I don't really count it as a birthday thing. Just awesome...

don't you love bad English translations?

men and pigs

This is for you Dad.

*for the record, I'm not calling my Dad a pig... this is a joke that he told me*

A man was driving his new convertible with the top down. He was driving really fast enjoying the drive when a woman drove by, stuck her head out the window and yelled, "PIG!!".

He returned the compliment by yelling back "WITCH!!" (certain words have been edited for the comfort of the readers).

Then as soon as he turned the corner, he swerved to miss a lone pig standing in the middle of the road, crashed his car, and died.

Moral of the story: if only men would listen...

fact:

The less I show, the more there is to imagine...

That's kind of scandalous but true:

Modest is Hottest

FACT:

When I was little, I had a Batman and Princesses birthday party. We had capes and my brother Joe gave me a 12-in Batman action figure. I still have it somewhere.

Truth:

With my hair getting longer, I've learned to appreciate not doing anything with it. Just let it loose and don't worry about it. Sometimes it gets a little crazy but it's just character!

FACT:

Do NOT call me "baby"

Do I look like a baby? I am not a baby.

I am a woman. But you must treat me like a lady.

Stupid man

Fact:

Men who use Macs are sexy